sunday, 8/31/25

oh, blog. it's been a very long week. i'll give a recap!

tuesday i spent the morning with alex & we went to blackbird coffee and drew some doodles for a bit, and then we went to the library & got library cards for the winter park library! we sat & read for a bit & that was nice. it's not my favorite library. it feels very cold and industrial and there wasn't much comfy seating anywhere. after we were done hanging out, i got ready to go to hhn preview. i didn't do all of the houses, i'm saving the main ones to do with alex next week, but overall i had fun!

wednesday i just kinda chilled and spent the day at home. i attempted to make stuffed artichokes for dinner & it turned out horribly! i felt so sad because they were basically inedible so that was a bummer. but alex came over after he was done at his film school and we got chipotle together. we had a sleepover & watched futurama & it was wonderful

thursday was alex and i's 8 month-iversary! the morning was a bit of a rough start but it settled around noonish. we spent the early afternoon doing our themed month-iversary activity and i taught alex how to wire wrap a crystal pendant. it was very romantic and sweet. after that i went into work and my shift was pretty chill.

friday i opened & had another chill shift. i got a message from this job that i applied to and have an interview scheduled for tuesday! i'm really looking forward to it!! after i got off work i went home & did a bunch of chores. i did my laundry, cleaned my apartment, cleaned out my car and then i made a very yummy yummy dinner. it was rice cooked in chicken stock with chicken breast, and broccoli. it slapped.

yesterday i opened again and again, had an okay/chill shift. after work, i went to goodwill and thrifted and outfit because my friend mya invited me & alex to go to the clerb with them. i got all sexy & ready & then mya came to my house & then we went to alex's house so we could all oober to southern nights. we got there kinda early actually but it was pretty cool cause we got inside quick with no crazy wait time in line. i had so much fun dancing with my friends. our friend alyssa also showed up & that was such a treat. after dancing for a couple hours & having our ears blasted (forgot earplugs rip) we went outside to chill for a bit & then we got hotdogs from the stand outside. it was so freaking yum and much needed. we all went home pretty soon after that. it was such a good time with my friends. i had a blast!!

today has been pretty okay so far. i spent the night at alex's & we had the morning together. now i'm at home hanging out with benny before i have to go to work. i think i'm feeling a little down today, but it's alright. feelings come and go! i'm hoping my shift will go well. i'm clopening today & tomorrow but thank god tomorrow is my friday. that's all for now. xoxo

monday, 8/25/25

hello, blog. i woke up this morning thinking that i was closing today, only to have my manager call me & let me know that i was the opener today. i rushed out of my house so quick lmfao i felt so silly for reading my schedule wrong. i was also kinda disappointed because i was going to go to the gym with alex this morning but it's okay. we're gonna go tomorrow! i'm going to the team member preview for HHN tomorrow night too & i'm really excited. i don't really have anyone to go with & that's kinda bumming me out but i think that i'll still enjoy it. i wrote a song today about my god dream i had. i think it's gonna be a great song. oli is helping me write chords for it! i love my talented friends. alex came over & we did that onion boil that was trending on tiktok. it was so freaking good but i am so full of onion now. mmmmm. i can't wait to sleep tonight. i'm hoping my dreams won't be insane but i can't be too sure they won't. oh well!!

sunday, 8/24/25 cont.

man, oh man. i ended up not going in to work because i devoloped a headache that was pretty gnarly. alex came over to my place after we went to austin's and we took a 3 1/2 nap. my nap dreams are always so insane. my dreams in general are insane. i dreamt that i saw god the other day during a nap dream. here's how it went: i was at work but it wasn't work it was some weird location. there was a lot going on & come to find out i was like infiltrating some secret facility. the people there found me and had accused me of trying to figure out where their nuclear weapons were (come to find out they were underneath us) and then two people grabbed both of my arms. they take me to this pyramid-like machine and start saying how they would have never been able to harness these nuclear powers without seeing the truth that god had laid out for them. i am very confused and scared about what they are saying and then they tell me that they need me to see the vision and ask me if i'm ready to witness god. i'm screaming and crying at this point and i tell them no and they turn on this pyramid machine. these "doors" open on the machine and the inside of it is this bright kaleidoscopic light that has this overwhelmingly loud hum. they throw me inside the machine and i am floating in this space being enveloped by this massive power. i was screaming and crying as loud as i could and i could hear this loud, booming voice speak to me but i couldn't make out what it was saying. i think i realized at that point i was dreaming and kept thrashing my arms and legs (in my dream) until i could convince my body to wake up. the end. i woke up super disoriented and confused. this is not my first god dream, though. i had a dream one time where i was walking down the sidewalk and then all of the sudden the clouds open up. i look up and see rapper eminem in the sky and he's like "hello, my child". i'm absolutely dumbfounded and i ask if this is real because you're telling me eminem is god?? and he's like "yes i am god. there is evidence of me everywhere. just look around you." and i look down at the sidewalk & there's a freaking m&m candy on the ground and that was proof that eminem was not only a rap god, but god god. that was probably one of the funniest dreams i have ever had. it felt like it was out of a comedy movie. i wonder if i'll be able to sleep well tonight since i took such a large nap. who knows. i made dinner earlier and it was kinda mid but it's not my fault. it is my fault but also not at the same time. i was trying a new recipe and it didn't turn out the way i expected it to.. now i have mid leftovers. but who am i to complain? i'm not up to much right now. i'm sitting in bed and kinda admiring my apartment. i love the way i have decorated it. it's so cozy and is more than i could have ever asked for. i think i'm gonna end this update here because it's highkey kinda long. goodnight blog<3

sunday, 8/24/25

good morning! last night was... EPIC!!!! the seafood boil was a huge success. everyone had so much fun and we ate so much freaking food and every single piece was so yummy. there was crab, shrimp, mussells, crawfish, scallops, potatoes, corn, vegan sausage, eggs & they were all cooked to freaking perfection. i devoured my plate. everyone was so helpful to alex getting everything ready too & that was awesome. we also jumped in the pool a couple times & it was so much fun just hanging out with all of our friends. alex's mom also brought us cookies to top it all off. epic. overall, it was such an amazing time being surrounded by my friends and shellfish. after things winded down, we cleaned up the house and got everything all sparkly clean so alex wouldn't have to worry about it in the morning. izzy was super helpful with doing the dishes & that was so sweet of her. i can't wait for next year's boil!! now i'm at austin's with alex & kyle & we're just hanging out. i had a bagel with cream cheeze & 'cado and i'm drinking a "swamp water". it's just sprite with lavender flavoring & i coined the name. it's so yummy delish. i work later today. kinda wish i didn't but it's okay. alex and i are gonna head over to my place and watch a little bit of futurama soon! i'll update more later! till we blog again~

saturday, 8/23/25

hey blog! i'm off work at alex's house hanging with izzy & alex before the seafood boil. we're just havin fun & being silly & sharing secrets & talking about boys ehhehehe. i can't wait for everyone to get here so we can celebrate all these yummy shellfish!!! work today was pretty ill. it went by super fast so i can't complain about it. i love my friends a whole lot. i'm gonna update more after the boil!!

friday, 8/22/25 cont.

work today was soo good. we were closed for a bit and it was pretty fun. when i got off work i went over to alex's house. we ate some vegan homemade pizzas and watched a little bit of futurama. alex really wanted to start watching it because he had never sat down to really watch it and it's one of my favorite shows. so this is our "new" series we're indulging in. after we chowed down, we mosied on over to an asian supermarket & got some cool and yummy groceries. i'm going to make baked artichokes this week & i'm so pumped. artichokes go crazy. i also spruced up my spice cabinet which had been serverly depleated as of late. it was so fun walking up & down the aisles of the store with my swaglicious love. after that we stopped at whole foods and i got a loaf of sourdough bread that i'm super excited about as well. alex and i recently went to new york to stay in a cabin on a lake and made the tiktok "onion bake" while we were there. we toasted some sourdough to go along with it and by god it was one of the best things i've ever eaten. no lie. who would've thought a whole ahh onion would go so stupid. i didn't. i say all of this to say that i bought some more onions and i see another onion bake in our very near future. i got home later after grocery shopping and hung out with my girl benny for a bit. she is one of the most vocal kitties i've ever had. and when i say vocal, i freaking mean it. she yells at me so much in such a sing-songy way. it's the cutest thing ever, but damn. girl has some pipes on her. i have work tomorrow morning and then after that is the seafood boil!!!! F yesss!!! i'm excited to hang with all of my friends and eat some freakin crab n stuff. i'm gonna end this here. i'll report back tomorrow after the boil has consumed me. goodnight<3

friday, 8/22/25 cont.

im at work right now on break. im eating a mysterious pastry. i think its a mini pound cake. usually when i open we dont really get any storms. its that time of year where evening storms are more common than morning/midday storms but today came an early one! i always feel bad telling people to leave the pool when theres lightning in the area but its sunny outside. it can be confusing trying to tell people its gonna storm when its all blue skies but theres a menacing storm behind one of the buildings out of sight. i only have a couple minutes of break left but i think today will be pretty easy. im going grocery shopping later with alex & im excited for that. hes throwing a seafood boil tomorrow! its gonna freaking rule!!! i will update more later :)

friday, 8/22/25

it's barely friday, it just turned 12:05am. i just helped my friend izzy set up her own blog. blogging is so in right now. i went on a really nice walk with alex & his dog holly. we laughed, we cried, we walked. i found a little frog on our walk too & took a picture with him. i'm having a sleepover at alex's place tonight. the other day, we decorated a couple medicine bottles so i can keep some back up medication at his house in case i forget mine. it was a really cute way to be creative with him. we do silly little celebrations for each month we're together. last month was our "bug" monthiversary, we made airdry clay bugs for each other. this month is the "metal" monthiversary. it's so exciting seeing what we do to be creative together. it's so special having a love like this. i have work tomorrow morning. i'm not looking forward to the heat. i always say i'm ready for winter but then winter comes and i freeze. i have such a low threshold for extreme temperatures on either side of the spectrum. i say extreme, but to me 50F is freezing. any time i say that anything lower than 60F is freezing, a northerner gains it's wings. they look at me like it's blasphemous. i'm just a cold little guy. i love my little blog. <3 this is awesomesauce!!

thursday, 8/21/25 cont.

i didn't end up going to austin's. i'm at alex's house. we shared carrot cake pastries but i didn't care for mine too much. it had walnuts in it and i don't think nuts belong in pastries! i stand by that. who ever heard of a sweet nut? not this guy. however, i appreciate that he still got me a little treat. i'm watching alex play red dead redemtion 2 & there's ponies and chickens! how fun! the only game i ever got good at was Barbie: Horse Adventure. i beat the entire game when i was young. and then my brother deleted all of my game data off his xbox360 to make more room for his games and i cried. i think i'm valid for being upset about that still. all that work and what did it get me... oh well.

thursday, 8/21/25

today has been good so far. i went to work this morning and had a pretty good shift. the sun was blazing like it was nobody's business and there was sweat in places only god has seen. i'm home now. my alex is on his way back from a trip to tallahassee to get some things done for his ice cream business he's starting. he's so cool. i'm dating the freaking ice cream man!! i'm on the phone with my friend oli as i'm trying to mangle and meddle with the skeleton of this html to make it look swag and dope. i'm going to see alex later. he bought me a pastry from this vegan restaurant he passed by on his trip. they also sold "krabby patties" but he said they didn't live up to the hype of a "real" krabby patty. sad. i'm looking out into my living room now and see my beautiful cat, benny, sitting on my tiny toadstool ottoman. she is the best. oli is about to play me a new song he's been writing. i'm very excited to hear it. i haven't written a song in a couple weeks and it feels like i'm gonna splode. i don't think i've been stuck, just lazy and overworked. i should try harder to make time for my passions. it's always so rewarding. i crave creation. i might go to austin's tonight. it's jazz night and i feel in the mood to make a friend. i really like meeting new people. it feels scary sometimes to put myself out there. i think that's just self-rooted fear. i fear that judgement will come to me no matter what i do, and that is true. but there are kind sides of judgement in my mind. i don't think judgement is a black or white thing. there's level to this ish. i think it's okay to be judged. i think where the problem lies with me is that i think all judgement towards me is negative. this stems from low self-worth, insecurity, blah blah blah, yadda yadda. i've heard from my friends a lot lately that i'm extremely pleasent to be around. this makes me feel wonderful, and i try to let my thoughts of insecurity have their space to be, but i want to focus on trusting the judgement of those that love me. with that being said, i don't feel as scared as i used to when i try & meet someone new. it's been raining for the past couple of hours. evening showers are my favorite. there's such beauty in the gloom of a stormy sky. i think i'll miss this the most when i leave florida (whenever that is).

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i've always wanted a blog and now i have made one. i think it's pretty cool.

i'm 26 years old. i'm from florida and i've lived here my entire life. i've enjoyed it mostly, especially the rainy seasons. although, i feel that i belong somewhere else. maybe someday i'll figure out where that is..

i have a wonderful cat. her name is benedict arnold, but i call her benny. she is a beautiful calico shorthair and she is my world. it's such an honor to care for such a lovely embodiment of joy. she's outgoing, friendly, cuddly, and did i mention beautiful? she's the wind beneath my wings!! i love my lady<3

i'm in a band. we're called 'austin's anonymous'. i'm the lead vocalist, my friend channing plays guitar and vocals, and my friend riley plays the cajon. i would describe us as an acoustic sound that is mostly indie/alternative with notes of folk. y'allternative, if you will. we've been together for over a year now and it's one of the best things i am apart of. i've always had such a strong passion for music. ever since i was young i knew i wanted to let my voice be heard. there is something so special about the vulnerability that comes with song writing. it's like letting the world see me bleed and letting a stranger put on a bandage.

i'm still figuring out what i want to do with my life. i've been a lifeguard for over 5 years, but i'm feeling a calling to work with kids who have disabilities. i want to make a difference with others. i have always felt compelled to help those around me. i find passion in it! it feels wonderful being able to serve others and not expect anything in return. it's what i love to do.